The Tales Of The Good Times

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 06:14:11 GMT

I LOVE MY BABY! HES THE BEST! BUT HE NEEDS TO GO TO BED! :-P

Oh My God!!!

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 05:21:03 GMT

Sara just asked me to be her maid of honor!!!
Holy fuckin shit! Im SO excited!!!

Oh yea, and I went from #22 to #6 on someones list. Uh Oh!
Bad David, Bad! :-p

Aww!

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 07:40:41 GMT

I just got the sweetest voicemail from my sweety! What a lucky lucky girl I am!
He certainly knows how to make me smile and feel loved!

Un-Important Ramblings

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 01:54:04 GMT

Im a little stressed out today but its nothin terrible.
Work today was one of those crazy hectic days where your constantly
running around, and you definalty dont want to be. I wanted to be at
home, in bed, writting kevin and reading my book instead. But now that
Im home I cant figure out what to do with myself. Im trying desperatly
to keep myself busy and distracted so I dont have to think about all
the things that are going on right now. None of these things are anything
out of the normal everyday problems tho, so Im very thankful for that.
I feel like even with this stress Im still feeling good about things.
I mean really, this will all pass. Im just stuck in a few uncomfortable
situations that I will soon be able to get myself out of. And I know Im
looking forward to lots of great things.
The major thing is my job still. Im not one who likes change at all. And
not working at Yankee Candle (My easy ass fun job) and then getting this
new assistant manager position, it was change. I hated it for some time
like everyone hates a new job. But once again Im comfortable, or at least
comfortable enough to deal with it. But now I have to get a new job so
that I can go on vacation. Thats definatly not the only reason, but its
the only reason actually pushing me to go looking for something else.

I feel really bad about it because I havnt told my boss that Im looking
for something else, she has no idea. I dont want to leave her stuck without
another assistant, but at the same time its not fair to me all the things
I have to deal with and that Im denied my vacation. I value my job sure,
only because it brings in cash and pays my bills. But Im not about to put
my life on hold and miss something that will stay with me for the rest of
my life because its not convienant for someone else. Especially for a retail
job. I can get another job just like it at a million other places.
I already applied at a place Im sure to get the job at. Basically because I
already worked there and have done everything needed for the position im
applying for, even tho it wasnt my actual title on paper. So they wouldnt need
to train me, Im completely open schedule wise. And a fellow co-worker from
the location I worked at, transfered to the new one Im applying at. If I
dont get this job I would be shocked.
But I have to do it soon which leaves my boss in a shitty spot. Im avoiding
mentioning it simply because I dont want to go through hell everyday that
I work there until Im gone, which it will be because shes a bitch like that.
And I cant mention it without having another job lined up for sure because
what if she lets me go. Even though she really cant afford to because there
would only be 2 managers and one assistant. Which again is why I feel so shitty
about not saying anything. The situation sucks in general.

Its nothing I cant work out but I just dont have a whole lot of time to think
about what Im going to do. I mean yes, I have months to find something new until
my trip. But if I want this job at this specific place I will have to jump fast
on it.
I guess this would be easier to figure out if I had someone to give me some
damn advice. Thats the only thing about my life these days that sucks. There
are not many people that I can talk to these things about or that I even bother
to tell these things about. I know other people have alot more complicated issues
in thier lives, and issues they dont themselves create like this one I have created
for myself. That and I have basically distanced myself from alot of my friends
since I got this new job. Im not really sure why, and its not another thing
I care to sit and think about.
I guess its all just another perk of getting older. Your supposed to get smarter,
wiser as you get older, but really Im just as confused about everything in my life
just as I was years ago.

Blah

Wed, 31 May 2006 03:12:39 GMT

So last Monday is probably the most fun I have had all month.
Justin showed me a pretty kick ass bar, Dakotas. They had amazing
specials for Monday and were open until 4am. I had about 6 shots,
5 beers and had a grand old time. When I get drunk I talk to everyone
and their mother, haha. I made a few chicky friends I guess you could
say. Justin is definatly my favorite bar buddy. Hes one of the very
few guys who will dance! And anyone whos been to the bar with me knows
I have a really good time if I get to shake my ass a bit. Haha!

I dont drink anymore so when I do Im the happiest girl in all the
world, haha. Its true, I becomes the happiest drunk imaginable. Its so much greater when its not an often thing.

Last night I went to On The Border, great mexican rest. I loved it,
and def recommend it! I also saw X-Men The Last Stand which was an
incredible movie.
Today was my day off and I had lots of plans. I wanted to go to the mall
with my sis and look around for some clothes for my vaca and a new bathing
suit. And then spend the rest of my day with sis planning Kevs welcome
home party. Well because of the weather I got stuck at home! FUn day! :-\

As for today, I think the crappy weather is getting to me. I have so much
on my mind and Im stressing out. I have had alot of fun planning my
vacation but it makes me feel a bit icky I must admit. In order to go
on this vacation I have to find a new job. I have really come to like my
job alot, aside from hating my boss. But things are just to crazy there.
I dont get the days I request off. I cant get the day off I want weekly.
I was denied my time off to go to the gathering, and now I have been denied the time off for this Vegas trip. How fuckin rediculous is that?!
I dont really have a choice. Im not passing up this opprotunity! My life is filled with all these plans that never become anything. And this is something Im set on doing. So therefor, time to job search once again.

Im confused about alot of things that could potentially change many things in my life. Deciding what the right thing to do is always hard. And the thing with Kevin getting out ... Im really excited. But at the same time I have this huge cloud hanging over me and I dont know why. Im really nervous and have this strange unsettling feeling. And I cant figure out why. Well I guess I do have some sort of idea .. Keri ...
This one single female is holding so many cards that could potencially ruin Kevin once he comes home. She needs to stay the fuck away from him! She is such a worthless whore and Kevin doesnt need her bullshit. He needs a new start when he comes home. Im just hoping he will make the right choice.

Just Stuffs

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 21:56:01 GMT

First things first -

So the So Sic gathering Saturday was alot of fun.
I picked up Sara and headed to Emmas house where Sarah and her were waiting
for us. I suggested some drinks before we hit the road and we all got pretty
trashed in a really short period of time. The ride was funny as all hell.
We finally got there feening to drink some more. We missed some peoples perform
but it was all good.
We drank, listened to music and enjoyed ourselves. I met some cuties and some
cool guys. Spooky, Carl & Panik did great. I was especially impressed with Panik.
The vibe there was awesome. I met one cool chicky in paticular, Jenny. God
is that girl gorgous!
So drunk as fuck we decided to head over to hier hotel room and party it up over
there some before takin off. I ended up leavin the room to walk and talk with
Kevin Evan, haha. Hes a cool one. When we went back the girls and Wicked 1 had
gone downstairs to the hot tub. They were all naked! haha! I went to get in cause
only the girls were in there but before I could one of the staff members came
and kicked us out! Bummer!

So i got that new job, yay. I went in for my first day yesterday and it was alright.
Im used to my last job where everything is neat and clean and new. This place is not
so much like that. Im not completely comf there yet and IM not sure how much I like
it. But its only the first 2 weeks at a new place that sucks. After that once I know
all that Im suposed to do it will be fine. I think Im most uncomfortable with people
being over my shoulder all the time. Im not used to that. But oncve the 2 week
training is over I will be able to open and close by myself and have some piece. Yay.
Even if I dont like it Im gonna stick with it because it pays well and basically,
I need the money!

I need to get my car back. I need to save more the gathering. For this suposid
trip im taking to Las Vegas. I want my first trip there to be fun and worth remembering.
And I think going there for Heathers birthday will be anything but that. So I think
Ill let them go and stay behind.

Plus once Kevin gets home weather it be in July or October Im gonna need money to
throw him a bad ass welcome home party! If he does come home in July, before the
gathering, hes getting an early birthday gift! He is gonna go with me! :)

Will Things Ever Get Better?

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 05:01:27 GMT

Blah.

SO I went to my dads court date, it was a disaster. Mom didnt even go, I couldnt believe it!
What a selfesh jerk. She rather sleep than see and be suportive to her husband. Same ol shit.
He got 5 years which he will serve 2 of. Kill didnt even show up and he still got that, its crap!
So much for praying. I tried to have a little faith in something, a little hope that maybe there
is a God and he wouldnt let such a terrible thing happen. But I was right originally.
That just isnt so.

So last night in hopes to cheer me up or just plain forget, him and his boss invited me up there
to be a tester to see what drinks they should put on special. It was only suposed to be 4 drinks.
But 4 drinks turned into 12. And 10 were good so I drank those 10, and for free. It was a blast.

Today I went to an interview for an assistant manager position. Im pretty sure I got it but Im not
going to get my hopes up. Because really, I dont see anything going right for me. Its just one
thing after another no matter how hard I try. Im going to call them back tomorrow to see whats up.
Im just gonna tell them I wanted to see if they figured out if they want me or not and I had to
call because I will be out of town over the weekend. Which isnt totally a lie. Im just really anxious.
I need a job so desperatly and this would be perfect. More than anything else I need the money
to pay to get my car fixed. I miss my baby so much!

I was doing so well with this good mood, high spirits thing for so long and then things just
came crashing down. I dont really know how it started to become like this again. When Im out and
about and around other people Im good at pretending that its all ok. But there are a very
select few people who know me too well and see through that.

On top of everything my whole family basically hates me right now, I dont even know what to do.
I have a family event comming up and Im not sure I should even go. One I have to because of my
Godchild whom I love to death. So Im going to have to put up with the fact that everyone else
hates me. They are not here with me on an everyday basis so it will make it easier to accept
and deal with. It pains me to know I have been in the wrong, as have they as well. But I just
dont have the energy to say or do anything about it right now. There are people in my life
who accept me for who I am and my honesty, and also understand the difference between my outbursts
and how i really feel. I dont find the need to explain myself at this point and time
because I just dont have the energy.

I have never really felt like a part of the family. No one includes us in family outings, we
just show up for holidays and some birthdays. I have never been ok or comfortable with that
but I dont say anything. I dont see it changing thats why. We are known for the people who
dont show up to anything but at the same time we are never notified. I dont know what I can do.
So I wont do anything right now.

I guess thats it for now.

No More Blogs

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 04:24:36 GMT

From now on this is where I will be writing instead of Myspace blogs.
If your interested continue to check out this page and/or create
and account yourself and add me to your friends list. You will then be
able to see my more private, friends only entrys.

Thanks Guys!

Complete Sadness

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 04:23:06 GMT

Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. It started nice, going out and shopping for the
new apartment. Me and Tommy went out with Chris and Monica, his new wife. It was so exciting
that Chris got married. I only wish I had been able to be there, but oh well, it was really
short notice. So we went to Buffalo Wild Wings, yes of course I played poker and kicked ass.
Justin, Trent, & Paul eventually showed up too which was cool. I havnt seen those guys in a
minuted cause I dont go out to the bar anymore. Im a broke ass.

So I had to go home early because the next day was the day I had to go visit my dad.
Tommy wasnt gonna stay long, til midnight he said. So I sat at home trying to sleep and
crazy things kept running through my head. I kept thinking, "what will i say?",
"am I going to be able to handle seeing him?" a whole bunch of things. It started to get
late and the more time passed the more awake I became. I couldnt stop thinking about it.
I wanted to talk to someone about my worries but these are personal things I just
couldnt talk to anyone about. So I just waited for Tommy to get home so I could talk to
him about it all.

Well midnight passed. Then 1a, 2a, 3a. On top of worrying about not getting any sleep before
I had to go, and worrying about actually going, I was now worrying if Tommy was ok.
I didnt know where he could be or how to reach him. I just sat there and worried.
Then at 4am I got a call from Paul. "Im at Penny Road with Tommy and hes trashed. He got
pissed off and took off on foot from the bar"
You can imagine how livid I was. Im sitting her freaking out about my dad and worrying
about Tommy and hes at a bar! What if I had actually been asleep when I got this call.
Wheres the consideration in all of this? In a few hours was the most stressful day of
my life and he was out at the bar all night, not here being supportive. And I wont
even begin to start about how much was actually spent. How does one spent over $100 at
the bar. Oh wait, maybe going to 3 different bars ... I dont know. I was fumming!

He gets home, we fight, I left. I drove to my sisters and realized I dont want to
live there anymore. I drove all the way back and picked up all of my belongings and
drove right back to my moms. We got ready to go because we had to be there by 9am
and my mom says shes not going. The last chance we have to see him in 2 1/2 years
and shes not going! I gave her the biggest guilt trip possable then she agreed.
Right as we are about to walk out the door. "Im not going, Im in too much pain"
WHAT THE FUCK?!

We didnt want to be stuck in the car with her anyways so we just went. Thankfully
we didnt get lost on the way which was nice. I cant handle getting lost, esp in the city.
So we get there and go in. No, we cant get through, we have to change out shirts.
We have to be covered up to our neck. And i was wearing black work pants, a long shirt
and a sweater over it. But NOOOOOOO I have to change. So I walked all the way back to the
car and fuckin changed.
We come back and they dont think they can let us up to the desk to check in because
Jess doesnt have a parent or a state ID. Shes 16, doesnt drive, what does she need a
state ID for, she has a school ID! On top of that I told them, shes my sister and Im
21 so I can pass for a legal gardian. They say fine. Then look at our IDs and we
have different last names. Another problem.

They tell us we can try it at the front desk when registering but they dont know if
it will pass or not. So we get up there and shes a total bitch. One look at us and says no!
I argued that a 16 year old shouldnt have to have a state ID. That there are plenty of
teenagers and children who come in and do they need one? I dont think so! So whats
wrong with this? She freaks out on us and throws us out of the building!

After talking to my dad early that morning, telling him Im comming. Then driving all the
way out there, a nervous wreck ... I leave not even being able to see him!
I wasnt even mad that I didnt get to see him. Of course I want to see him! But what
Really bothered me is that he didnt get to see us! He was going to be so disappointed!
He sat there all morning waiting for us being all excited and we are a no show.
I cant even imagine what that felt like for him! I was a mess. I sat in the car for
a good 30 minutes just staring at the building. Being devestated that my father was
so close, I could see where he was at, but I could see him! I didnt want to leave.
I couldnt even drive with the tears.

I can honestly say whole heartidly, I have never been so upset in all my life.
SO when we went home he wasnt going to be able to call until after 4pm.
So he had hours to sit there, sad, wonderig whats going on before even getting
to talk to us and find out. I tried so hard and I failed him. I felt like the
biggest disappointment of a daughter.
Why are people so cruel?! ALl I wanted to do was enter a building and see my father
whom I havnt seen in 7 months. And who after tomorrow I wont see for 2 1/2 years.
They could make my day, my week, my month or break my heart. All depending on what
they feel like being that day. Someone understanding or someone mean.

So tomorrow is the last court date. I will be able to see him for 30 seconds from afar.
If Jill doesnt show up tomorrow the case will be dropped. But for some reason she
keeps dragging this out. Why? Shes not even hurt. 7 months is long enough without our
father, why is she doing this? I pray to God she doesnt show up tomorrow. The happiness
of my family depends on it. We are completely falling apart without him around.
If I see her tomorrow Im going to beg her .. literally. Ill put all my pride aside and
beg her to walk away, to not enter that court room!
Im 21 years old. Im going to want to get married, have kids. I will not be able
to do any of these things if they happen to come along in the next 2 1/2 years.
My sister is 16, going through really hard times. With my mom, with school, with
life in genreal. These are critical times that my father needs to be around for.
My family is living off of my grandparents and they will soon have no place to go.
My grandparents can only support them for so long. My family is literally in every
possable way falling apart!

Why in gods name is she doing this. What has he done so bad where he needs to be
gone for 3 years?! Really! Shes not only hurting him, but a family. She is recking
us. What he did to her is fixable and already has been. What she is doing to us
is altering our lives, destroying them. We need our father ...

Good News!

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 23:40:45 GMT

Another thing on my list is getting done and I didnt
have to do anything for it to happen, haha. Talk about
some good shit! Nicole at my work is getting fired
and Im getting fulltime! YES! About damn time. I love
that me and my manager are tight because I get whatever
the fuck I want because I actually do shit for her.
So By the end of the month Ill have Monday thru Friday
11a-7p. Sorry to all the other employees who will only
be getting 1 shift a week, and they are all on the weekends.
Jens my gurl, luv ya!

Jen + Hospitals = BAD!

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 11:10:34 GMT

Short update about my recent hospital experiance, it was pretty sucky. Obviously, lol. Tuesday I woke up feeling like shit. I have been sick for the past 3 weeks and it just kept getting worse and worse. So I was like fuck it, go in!
As soon as I got there and told them my symptoms, they asked me 2 questions and diagnosed me. Are you on the pill? Do you smoke? Yes x2! So 5 doctors told me they think I have a blood clot in my lung, Fun! They took blood and colapsed a vein. Then actualy took blood from the other arm and stuck an IV in me. Did some blood work, gave me an EKG. X-ray as well as a Katscan. None were fun. I sat there all alone for 3 hours until Tommy and Kimmy showed up. Little Dave did offer to come up and see me when he found out I was there alone, hes a sweetheart. But I dont really like people to see me at my weak points, esp now. But I was basically in tears cause I was pretty scared and I was alone. Alot of things Im being able to handle right now, but my health, that one got to me. They did give me some Dilaudid in my IV which made me a VERY happy camper. God if they sold that shit, lol, I would sell my soul for a lifetime supply. :-p So turns out they just scared the shit out of me for 5 hours, I dont have a blood clot! Thank God! They said its an infection in my lung tissue. But really I dont think they had a fuckin clue what is wrong with me. Doctors suck ass! Yes, yes they Do!!!
ANyways the meds they prescibed were $70 so I had to get some cheaper ones. Instead of being able to afford the 5 day (1 a day) pills I got some 4 a day for 10 day garbage. These things give me a whole new set of problems! They eat away at your stomach pretty bad. I only took 3 today and I threw up. Yesterday I only took one and I was feeling sicker than shit. Oh well though, thats life. I got some vicodin Im takin while at work though because it makes me not feel so sick, ok and a little loopy. But its for work only, I can deal with the shit on my own time. Just want to be able to handle being at work.
Well thats my story, I will have more to come soon.

Good Friend or Bad Friend ?!

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 09:21:41 GMT

So my suposid best friend sara, has yet to call me back. I have been trying to get ahold of her all week but her phone isnt working. I called Ryan and told him to have her call me that its important. But she was out with Chrissy n Kati, much too busy to give me a call back. Whatever. Im always there when she needs to talk or is going through something, I always try to help her as much as I can cause I love the girl. But im now going through one of the hardest times of my life and shes just too busy for me. COmplete bullshit!

Whatever to sucky friends!

Brief Update

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 05:14:42 GMT

I know its been a while since I wrote and I have alot of BULLSHIT to write. And I mean ALOT! First off Tim found out about the lake house shit, i knew he would. We dont really talk anymore and if we do its him yelling at me. I have pretty much come to a "fuck it" state of mind when it comes to Tim. It was great knowing him and I have a few regrets but Im over him now. That only took 6 years.

Me and Tommy 2 weeks ago went to Miles grad party in the woods right down the street. It was fun drinkin by the fire n chillin. After a while some people got into a fight, a very unfair fight. 3 against one poor nice kid. Shit broke out and it was a mess. Night ended up with Damons g/f and this Jenny girl talkin shit but no one let me fight them. I hit a few guys and got hit back. Also Tommy got whomped by 3 guys, it was a gay ass move cause they were all bigger than him. And it was all cause he defended me. Whatever.

4th of July weekend was fun. We hung out with Charles, Danielle and Leslie. They blew off $300 worth of fireworks. The only gay part was that a cop showed up and dumped another $300 worth in water. TOo bad they were water proof, dumb ass! Lately I have been haning out with Leslie and Danielle. We all go to the movies alot and to Dennys n such. Good times. Also we chilled with John alot too, hes a cool fucker. I got my license back so thats alot of fun. Yayness. We hung out with Paul a few times too which is always funners.

Ahh Buh! Ok well theres been an intereumption so I will have to finish the rest tomorrow. Thats where all the good/bad shit comes in.

Sick!

Tue, 10 May 2005 22:45:32 GMT

OMG today blows the biggest ass ever! I woke up after having a horrid dream about my mom driving and wrecking my car. Then I had terrible cramps. Then I got nasiated as all fucking hell and began throwing up all fuckin day. I threw up even before I ate anything. It was yellow ickyness. SO I ate some wheat toast with butter and drank some water. That soon came right back up. Let me tell you that wheat bread def does NOT taste good comming back up. So my throat was killing me so i drank some water. The second I did, right back in the bathroom throwing that up. WTF. Right now Im sipping on some water and nibbling on crackers. I feel a little better now besides the fact that IM hungrier than shit but cant eat.
My plans today got fucked. I was gonna go see Sara at her work and see if I Could get a job there. Then I was gonna see if she wanted to go get some dinner cause I got some money. Well Tommy needed the car for work, I totally forgot. Besides, I wouldnt have gone out the door feelin like this. I have been getting sick ALOT lately. I hope nothings wrong. Probably just the change of weather. Oh well, Im going back to lay down, read and hopefully sleep.

Happy Mothers Day

Sun, 08 May 2005 23:15:48 GMT

This entry is for all the mommys who I love dearly.

For and foremost

Happy Mommys Day To Muh Sara! I cant wait til you have the little one. I hope he looks like you :-p

Happy Mothers Day To My Mom, who sucks and decided to sleep all day. Figures.

Happy Mothers Day To My Grammy, I love you!

Happy Mommys Day To Sarah. I hope all went well with the pregnancy, cant wait to see little Trinity.

Happy Mothers Day To Kimmi, wow #2 on the way.

If I forgot anyone, Oh Well. Happy Mothers Day.

Mine & Sara's Song

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 20:14:20 GMT

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
I's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

ExHausted!

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 13:21:36 GMT

For those who actually read this, and know that alot has gone on in the last week that I have yet to write about ... Sunday before I will get it all down! I promise! :)

I just got back from being at the hospital with Sara, what a night ....

Majik Records!

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 07:25:45 GMT

The story of Majik Recordz is filled with twists, turns, and unknowns. What REALLY happened with it, all the details, is really known only to the people involved, but many things have been confirmed, so here's the story as it is widely known:

In 2003, the relationship between Twiztid and ICP was not really going too well. Twiztid had seemingly grown apart from the label, doing all their own albums and production, their own tours, etc. Rumors began to fly that Twiztid was leaving Psychopathic.

In May of 2003, those rumors almost became confirmed when a website for Majik Recordz popped up. Honestly, the label wasn't supposed to be revealed until July, when The Green Book was released, but somehow the word leaked and juggalos got word that Twiztid was starting their own record label.

But it wasn't just Twiztid. The ownership of the label was split between 3 people: Madrox, Monoxide...and former Psychopathic employee Tom Dub. Dub had basically been Twiztid's tour manager on Psychopathic. He left Psychopathic in early 2003 (either quit or fired, depending on who you ask) and decided to help Twiztid get their label off the ground. Tom Dub also worked with Twiztid recording The Green Book. Psychopathic had pretty much zero input on the album, as it was all put together and done exactly how Twiztid wanted it, with the guests and producers they wanted. Rumor is Psychopathic almost didn't

Blaze
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release the album due to Mike E. Clark producing one of the tracks, but that, once again, is all rumor.

So anyway, in May, Majik Recordz became known and the first announced release for the label was to be the Samhein Witch Killaz album, which Twiztid had promised for Halloween of that year. They even opened a webstore, selling Majik Recordz and SWK merch. During all this time, Psychopathic pretty much had no comment on the situation and Twiztid and Tom Dub continued on along their merry way, forming Majik Recordz. They even opened up their own new webstore, TwiztidShop, which was basically competition to HatchetGear. Also, when new (and even old) Twiztid merch started popping up on TwiztidShop, NONE of the new items had the hatchetman logo on them. Even re-issued things, like hockey jerseys that originally had the hatchetman did NOT have them on the new versions. Eventually, when Psychopathic started breathing down Twiztid's neck about selling Psychopathic merch without the logo, the hatchetman suddenly reappeared on all the merch.

Around this time, Blaze Ya Dead Homie also announced that he would be retiring and that his last performance would be at the 2003 Gathering. Whether he really intended to retire or not is still a mystery, but many think that Blaze was faking a retirement in order to get out of his Psychopathic contract and jump ship to Majik Recordz with Twiztid. But like I said, that's just a rumor.

When The Green Book was released in July of 2003, the word 'juggalo' was never mentioned on the album. Twiztid and Blaze also went without face paint in the booklet, on tour, at the Gathering, etc. etc. Perhaps as a way to differentiate themselves from the rest of Psychopathic?

Twiztid and Majik Recordz
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At the 2003 Gathering of the Juggalos, the opening ceremony featured all of the Psychopathic artists coming onstage to welcome the juggalos to the event...all of the artists, that is, except for Twiztid and Blaze, who were mysteriously absent from the ceremony and never mentioned.

But Twiztid and Blaze DID show up, the next day, and were rolling all over the campgrounds alongside Tom Dub. Speaking of Tom Dub, he was sporting a brand new Majik Recordz tattoo...ON THE SIDE OF HIS HEAD! Many people took that to mean one thing: this label was for real and they were NOT bullshitting. This wasn't going to be a little joke-label for side projects, like Joe and Joey Records. This was going to be the real deal.

Tensions at the 2003 Gathering were high...you could go to a Twiztid seminar and Madrox would say one thing. Then you could go to the ICP seminar an hour later and Violent J would totally contradict what Madrox had just said. When asked about the new label at the seminar, Twiztid replied that it was a for real record label and although they were still under contract to Psychopathic, Majik Recordz was their true new home. Then in the Psychopathic Seminar, when asked about it, Alex Abbiss replied that Majik Recordz was just a little side-label Twiztid started for fun. There were definitely some problems in the Psychopathic camp and no party wanted to get too much into detail about it.

After the Gathering, the shit pretty much hit the fan for Majik. Suddenly the site went down for "technical issues" and was promised to return soon. But weeks passed and the site stayed gone. Meanwhile, Twiztid booked their very own Halloween night concert event called Fright Fest, which many people saw as more competition with Psychopathic, going head-to-head against Hallowicked.

The site stayed gone and eventually, rumor leaked that Twiztid and Tom Dub had a falling out of sorts and that the new record label was possibly over. But things stayed pretty much secretive for awhile until Violent J started popping up online in ICP chatrooms...often drunk...and told a lot more to the story than he probably should have.

Tom Dub's Majik Recordz tattoo
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He just went off on how things with Twiztid and them were falling apart and how Twiztid would probably be gone from Psychopathic before the year ended. According to Violent J, everything with Twiztid and them had seemed cool until ICP went on the Shangri-La Tour. When they came back from Europe, Violent J goes home, gets online and sees that while they were gone, Twiztid had pretty much jumped ship to Majik Recordz and was leaving Psychopathic. He had no clue what happened and everytime he tried to get in touch with Twiztid, Tom Dub refused to let him talk to them and wanted all the conversation to go thru him. He also revealed how pissed he was at Blaze for "retiring" only to start rapping and performing again with Twiztid only months later.

Rude Boy probably got the harshest diss in on Twiztid at the 2003 Big Ballas XMas Party in late December. Once again, Twiztid and Blaze were absent from the event. When he was onstage, Rude Boy said "I'm here! ICP's here! Esham's here! ABK's here! Zug Izland's here! But Twiztid and Blaze...they're NOT here! I guess they got better things to do than hang out with the family!" The crowd booed the fuck out of that. Were they booing Rude Boy for what he said? Or were they booing Twiztid and Blaze for not being there? Probably a mixture of both I'd guess.

Violent J seemed pretty tore up over the issue,

Violent J
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but he also knew that Twiztid and Tom Dub had also just had some issues and figured it was time to talk to Twiztid. So in January of 2004, Violent J announced in the chatrooms that he would be meeting with Twiztid in a few days to hammer out all the bullshit and try to fix the situation.

A week later, all Psychopathic websites popped up with a huge surprise. ICP's site, Twiztid's site, Blaze's site, ABK's...all of them had a big ass image which announced the return of Dark Lotus with a new album and tour.

I guess you could say ICP and Twiztid got shit straightened out.

Jamie Madrox later hit up his Batpage on Twiztid.com and laid down the law on what happend with Majik Recordz.

In short, according to Madrox, Tom Dub had spent months turning ICP and Twiztid against one another. He would tell Twiztid that ICP said this and that and then turn around and tell ICP how Twiztid had shittalked them. Without settling down to talk it out, tensions grew. When Tom Dub was later fired from Psychopathic, he continued on trying to turn Twiztid against them and into forming their own label. Thus Majik Recordz was born and the legal ownership was split evenly between Madrox, Monoxide, and Dub. Later on however, Twiztid learned of Dub's deception towards Psychopathic and they told Dub to give ICP and Alex a written letter of apology, detailing the truth of what happened. Dub refused and so Twiztid broke off the relationship with Tom Dub and that, ladies and gentlemen, was the end of Majik Recordz.

After having their discussion and hammering shit out, a number of things happened. Suddenly, shit was back to being like the old days again. Blaze came out of retirement, Twiztid and ICP were hanging out together like it was 1998 again, they wrote, recorded, and released a Dark Lotus album in 3 months and then toured together for it. At the 2004 Gathering, things were once again like old times, no more bullshit contradictions, Twiztid and Blaze WERE at the opening ceremony, and everything was cool again. When asked at the seminars what happened with Majik Recordz, Twiztid simply replied "It's dead and fuck Tom Dub."

Tom Dub's story is a bit different. According to him, he was never fired from Psychopathic, he left on his own and joined Twiztid, who were unhappy on Psychopathic. They started up Majik Recordz as a way to release albums from underground talent that Psychopathic wasn't interested in (i.e. Q-Strange, who was almost signed to the label at one point). Dub claims he almost had a million dollar distribution deal lined up with Artemis Records which would have put Majik Recordz albums in every store in America. He also claims Blaze retired so as to jump ship to Majik and that eventually, with nothing happening, the label began to fall apart and was used only to re-release the old House of Krazees albums before Twiztid eventually asked him to leave the label and only run the webstore. Insulted, Tom Dub claims he left Majik on his own and that the ownership is tied up in court.

2004's Dark Lotus album Black Rain
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Also, in 2004, Twiztid were made DONS of Psychopathic Records. For the past 12 years, there have always been only 5 Dons in the company: Violent J, Shaggy, Alex, Jumpsteady, and Billy Bill. Madrox and Monoxide became the 6th and 7th Dons. Being a Don in Psychopathic Records is pretty much co-ownership of the company. Twiztid now officially helps run and operate Psychopathic Records and have total power over pretty much anything.

Also, as a way to sort of "publicly fire" Tom Dub, footage of him in a wrestling match was added to the JCW Vol. 3 DVD and it was added as a "Loser Leaves Psychopathic" match, which Dub promptly lost.

Currently, Majik Recordz is and will probably always stay dead. TwiztidShop has shut down and Twiztid merch is once again available on HatchetGear. As far as is known, Tom Dub still owns his share of Majik Recordz and refuses to sell it to Twiztid and vice versa. With all 3 of them still owning their portions of it but refusing to work together, the company will go nowhere. The SWK album has yet to be released and no word on it appears to be coming anytime soon.

Killn Time

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 06:27:56 GMT

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Mon, 30 Aug 2004 03:41:43 GMT

What A Disaster

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 20:07:03 GMT

Tuesday I went over to Tims to work out n spend some time with him. We spent most of the day just dickin around doing nothing , just relaxing at it was allot of fun. Later on he went out with his friends to the boat and I was on my way to Blockbuster to pick up some movies. I had left my phone in my car and when I got into it I saw Sara called. There was nothing good about what I had found out! Veronda (Joe's mom) and Sara got into a fight, a bad one. I guess it got rough and Veronda hit Sara and left some painful lookin marks. Sara thank God didn't hit her back, Sara knew she would have called the police on her. I met her up at Blockbuster where she was already at with Joe and we tried to figure something out. Tim said we could stay at his house and I would drive Sara to work in the morning. 6am in the morning :( Poor Sara. Well around 3:30 she still couldn't sleep so I gave her a ride to Joe's to get her things and then she went to work.
Wednesday I slept in then goofed off with Tim until I had to go to work. On my way I called Sara to see how she was and it was almost 5p and she was still at work! She ended up staying until 8p. All day at work I was stressed out and crabby because I have been worrying my ass off about Sara. I wish this hadn't happen, that she were still at Joe's. I dont understand why in Gods name Veronda would pull this shit. Shes out of $600 a month now too. I want Sara to stay around here, she's worked really hard to get where she is and Im proud of her for dealing so well with everything. I dont like the idea of her being with her Mom again, or getting taken away and put somewhere God awful. Ugg! :( On a good note, Chrissy was at work which was awesome! We got to catch up n stuffness :) After work I took Sara back to my house I tried to get her to eat some and got her to bed. I know she hadn't slept in days, so it was really good to see her sleep.
This morning Joe pissed me off. He was being a baby about coming to pick her up and about taking her to her moms. There's allot of shit Sara is worrying about and joes being a selfish little shithead. I like Joe, dont get me wrong. And I do know he loves her but he is NO good for her! Anyhow, I woke my ass up and took her over there. I hope everything works out and her mother has something helpful she can do. Im going to try to put it out of mind until she gets back home tomorrow. I hate worrying all the time, it makes me sick to my stomach. Funn, right. I dont really feel like doing shit tonight, Im tired and emotionally exhausted. Well Im off to bumm around some more. Buh Byes!

Blah

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 00:24:57 GMT

I got to see Sara today. I have been worried about her. There is alot of crap in her life that I dont think she should have to deal with. I could say the same about mine, but I dont openly discuss the shit that goes on at my house. IM kinda at this point just used to sucking it up and letting it eat away at me. Or I just run to Tim. Tim is the only person I really discuss my family shit with. Its done me alot of good to have met him and his family. I used to live so fucked up and think it was normal. Then when I met his great family, it helped me change the way I acted and responded to things. Tim and that whole family have been a blessing, I could never give them up, ever.
I have alot on my mind, I just need to think, Ill write later

Party!

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 04:12:42 GMT

The night of the 22nd me and Sara came over to Tims house to drink and hang out. We didnt really do much, just watched Sex & The City until Kati, Eric and 3 of thier friends came over. It was totaly gay and I couldnt wait for them (thier friends) to leave! Tim finally came home with Tony pretty late and we played cards. We ended up playing strip poker and Sara lost :-p
GOOD TIMES!
All week I had been planning to have a "get together" at Tims house either Friday or Saturday night. It was first Friday, then switched to Saturday because Sara had to work overnight Friday. Then Friday morning she calls me and tells me she doesnt have to work Sat and we should do it Friday. Fun stuff, haha. SO we made it for Friday night. Then at the last minute I thought of how kick ass it would be to throw a surprise Birthday party for Tim!! From that second on I began the planning and sneakiness of calling his friends.
I ran around all day buying decorations, ballons, liquor, camras, ect. First over was Shawn, to help me set up, then soon came Sara. Unfortunatly his friends bailed on the time they would be there and soon after Tim showed up with Tony. It was a whole lot of fun to see Tim speechless. Right after he came in, Alex, his sister (who I hate with a passion) and cousin came over. We had an issue with this all day because I HATE Andrea desperatly and I didnt want her to come. When I told Alex this, he wasnt going to come at all. I thought it was very asshole of him, considering she was NEVER invited to begin with!! I mean come on, Tim is his friend, he should have been more worried about offending Tim by not being there then someone who was never even welcome in the firsth place. WHATEVER! I was a good girly and said fine, I would deal with it so that Tim could have Alex there. But it was a fucking bitch keeping my cool!!
Then within 5 minutes Kati and Eric were there. Thats when it got fun! Me, Sara, Tim, Kati, Eric & Shawn played Fuck You and drank an assload! Good Times! SOmewhere after that Dave Clark showed up and a bit after that things got interesting! Tims brother Kevin called and told him where one of his B-Day gifts was, and out came a Fat fuckin blow up doll! OMG! Good Times! Sara was trying to get someone to fuck it!! Kevin and Kim came home a bit later and got to witness Daves penis in that damn thing. OMG the horror, haha.
There were alot of good pictures taken and alot of fun was had. There was some drama with Andrea but I had sworn on Tims mothers life I wouldnt get into a fight with her. GAY! Shes a total slut who has disrespected me time and time again by being all over someone who belongs to me! And here she was at my party drinking liquor I paid for. I downed alot of drinks just to destract myself from her. It was alittle harder when she started making rude as comments and giving dirty looks to both me and Sara. RRRRR if only I .. yea! I hate her!
Everyone left around 4am and me and Sara went upstairs to Tims moms room and talked until we passed out! We made a pact that if we ever see her again, we will fuck her up royally!

And those are the tales of the GOOD TIMES!

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 13:17:39 GMT

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